it takes an ocean

1. i’m sitting next to a little sleeping faithy
2. i had a really vivid sex dream last night
3. if this means i’m already sexually frustrated… i’m screwed.
4. i finally am able to read for pleasure again!
5. so i’m finally finishing TFiOS
6. yay, i’m going to cry so much!
7. and it’s less than a week until my roadtrip with jay
8. and yesterday was our 6 months
9. woop!

here’s to knowing:

1. that someday i’ll graduate
2. i’ll know more about biology soon (woo science student)
3. i don’t want kids
4. i never want to be with you, or anyone like you
5. that i have the ability to make myself happy
6. that my friends are genuinely kind people
7. that there are people who really care

TOMORROW

1. drop off final paper/do presentation
2. go to casey’s orals
3. dance around at mayfest
4. write letters to people i’ve worked with this year
5. go to ellie’s plan performance
6. freak out there’s only a week left

yesterday and today

• well, i’m 21!
• i have lovely friends for helping me revise for my clear writing requirement
• my professor said my research paper he revised was the best he has seen from me in the two semester i’ve had him
• so much revissssinignigngggg
• i will drink a hard cider after this
• and i will drink hard ciders at midnight breakfast
• yup.
• AND DANCE.
• okay, back to this.

1. i have been sitting in the coffee shop for two hours
2. and i have done zero work
3. but i did a lot of work last night, so i’m fine with this night of relaxing.
4. and i’ve had such a grueling day
5. but i did nap
6. that’s good

1. i’m working on too many things on once
2. my brain is fizzling out
3. and i’m tired
4. so i can only focus how sweet you look, curled up, working on your laptop. and your toes move just a little.
5. apparently you have a lot more focus than i do.
6. i have to wake up early to give a tour to high school conselours
7. then i have classes
8. then ded. hour
9. then a long ass town meeting
10. then tea with my plan sponsor
11. ah, that sounds good
12. then wow can it please end but also not end?

1. for breaking up
2. for throwing things away
3. for willingly throwing away your ideals
4. for him
5. for your immaturity
6. for your glares
7. for your eyerolls
8. for your music
9. for the way you’re a hypocrite
10. for being a fucking child
11. for the passive aggressive nights
12. it’s done

1. listening to a shit ton of beyonce
2. seeing cookie’s plan performance: amazing
3. winding down on work… surprisingly (revise my research, revise my mountain piece, write 8 pages on the nature of research and intelligence, final photo project)
4. oh, and making sure clear writing is ready
5. shit, i’m not ready for the semester to end
6. i’ll be 21
7. then a week later, my boyfriend and friends will be gone
8. then my friends who are seniors will graduate, which will break my heart
9. then i’ll be gone. off to new york, baltimore, then pdx with jay(?)
10. for now, revisions and beyonce.

1. my first solo tour was good
2. the weather was so lovely
3. now i’m waiting to meet jay’s family
4. i keep thinking about girl scout camping today
5. and i keep worrying about my illness
6. and other odd mysteries
7. but i had such a sweet night where we talked about trees and cameras and you and me

good things

1. by some fucking miracle, getting the last available single on campus for next semester (in my dorm of preference!) before the only ones left were in howland
2. seeing really great photos in class today
3. having good meetings
4. hanging in the coffee shop
5. having the biology professor saying she can’t wait to have me in class
6. being more caught up on work
7. tomorrow is friiiiidaaaaay

1. wow i am dealing with SO MUCH WORK right now
2. but i am really excited about a lot of things
3. jay’s birthday
4. dying my hair
5. giving more tours
6. paycheck tomorrow
7. and mY PLAN
8. which my adviser seems excited about:
9. creative perceptions of water through photography and writing
10. wow it feels good
11. i’m going to do some more work now
12. then work out with jay

things

1. being back in classes is good
2. except for all the makeup work
3. working out is good
4. except for how sore i am
5. snow is usually good
6. but it’s fucking april
7. anyway
8. i think i’ll take a nap until jay knocks on my door
9. hope you are having a lovely monday!

day 3 of being sick with da flu

1. i think i’m going to explore my tumblr archives, which could be a terrible thing
2. but jay and victoria are getting me various delicious liquids in town
3. and i have a pb and j waiting here for when i’m hungry
4. i sent alex a picture of my boob with a bandaid on it today
5. (i hurt my nipple…)
6. so like these fevers are getting ridiculous
7. when 99.9 or 100 degrees feels “normal”
8. then yes
9. i need to not be sick
10. and i need delicious liquids

• I FEEL LIKE DEATH
• MY FEVERS ARE RIDICULOUS
• I JUST WANT HUMAN INTERACTION
• AND NOT THESE FEVERS
• AND SOME SORT OF FOOD I CAN EAT
• BECAUSE I’M REALLY FUCKING HUNGRY
• BEING SICK IN COLLEGE SUCKS
• HAVING THE FLU SUCKS

today

1. i gave my first tour to prospective students!
2. i dealt with more bodily problems
3. and solved the problems!
4. it is just so lovely out
5. like, keep my window open and write one page one i should probably write like 3 pages of this paper weather
6. seeing hunger games tonight with victoria
7. these are the days when i don’t spiral out of control
8. these days are amazingly abundant